Saturday, December 31, 2005
22 more hours to the brand new year...
She's tired...
Just got home with a huge straw bag filled with her shopping trophies...
Had a little drink just now...
Felt a little groggy...
Nope...
Yeesh can drink...
It's just that she "intelligently" went to drink on a mega empty stomach...
She just went out with two of her best friends...
Wanted to try to see if she could close the gap...
Verdict?
Nope... She can't.
She's drifted too far away from them...
She was much happier shopping on her own than with them...
Shopping went fine...
How can shopping ever go wrong?
But the feeling was different...
Yeesh nearly snapped at them...
No no...not just nearly...
Yeesh DID snap at them...
Why?
Were they hostile/unfriendly?
Nope...
It was just Yeesh.
She was being anti social.
She was just on a mega "self protection" mode...
She's quite had enough of insults passed at her bags and her shopping and the clothes she likes even tho she know those insults were just simple jokes...
She fails to understand why she has to be teased just because of difference in preferences...
Yes, she may appear as if it didn't hurt...
That's how she looks all the time anyway...
But does it really mean that she didn't care?
Nope... she cared. BIG time...
Deep down, she wonders why her friends do that to her...
Just because she goes for the things they do not like?
If she can accept their taste...
Why can't they just accept hers?
And nope....
Saying things like:" Yeesh is weird you noe? She likes all the things we don't like..." does not help...
It just hurts more...
It makes Yeesh feel as if she has really bad taste...
Even though deep down inside her heart, she thinks that her taste is absolutely fine...
Nope... it's not like they don't care...
They are the two best girlfriends anyone can have...
The moment Yeesh said she was feeling groggy, they stepped right in to help take good care of her...
They just need to learn how to read her mind better...
B1's almost there.
She could tell that Yeesh was about to snap...
The other one? B2?
Well, let's just say she still needs some coaching...
Great actions and words do not mean anything...
They are all but actions and words...
It's the understanding that matters...
Yeesh likes the "look"...
With just lookin at the eyes of B1, Yeesh can feel a sense of assurance and calmness...
It makes her feel loved just to know that someone understands her...
YYY
